So, tonight, I think one could qualify the night as "special". Tonight is my very last night as someone's dependent. Well, I'm not sure dependent is quite the word I should be using. It's just that after tonight, I'm trully going to be on my own. No more safe attach anywhere. No more safe haven. No more certainties. After tonight, I really can't afford to fuck up.
Strangely, I was somewhat expecting myself to be nervous. That moving on with my life like this would put me slightly uneasy. But again, I guess I've just proven to myself that I don't know myself that well after all. I'm not nervous at all. I'm actually stupidly optimistic. I feel